Saturday, March 16, 2013
大人就不能有情绪吗？
大人就不能哭吗？
大人了就得把所有的烦脑往肚子里吞吗？
成长就得做好许许多多人对你的期望和应付好多好多你应该做的事，
也得学会去忍耐，接受你不可以和不应该做的事。
永远不能把你最真实的表情表露出来。
这就是成长。至少现在，这是我对成长的定义。
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Yvonne dancing in dreamland @ |10:25 am|
Saturday, January 08, 2011
I'm tired... very tired... Embrace differences are easier said than done.
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Yvonne dancing in dreamland @ |9:54 am|
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
My dreams seem so distant, like dandelion seeds blown away, drifted far away.
I feel good seeing all my stuffed toys on my bed.. Ernie seems to be peeping behind my pillow, anticipating my return from work.. He's so cute. I arrange all of them on my pillow. There is Ernie, Qiqi, Baobao bear, Red nose, Big Bird and nerdy Elmo...
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Yvonne dancing in dreamland @ |10:06 pm|
Sunday, November 28, 2010
I just log in to my All-Recipe website. I want to know confirm which year did I bake my brandy fruit cake. Yes.. it's year 2007, the year which I feel.. I truly had a good time during Christmas. How about now? I have lost the Christmas mood I experience during year 2007... Maybe because year 2007 is not yet the financial meltdown,, financial crisis whatever you call it... And I am only sweet 23 years old.. on the far end of the coming-to-30 scale.. I don't feel the stress of growing up yet... A lot of things I feel I still got time to try it out. first.. I don't feel the stress to perform... I don't feel the stress of die-die must perform... and maybe I feel more carefree then.. less stressful... So should I hate the stage of life I'm at now... Certainly not! I quite enjoyed the challenges I face. It may be a feat but when I have overcome it. I feel a immerse sense of satisfaction. Whatever doesn't kills me only makes me stronger. I will put in more hard work. I need to work hard.
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Yvonne dancing in dreamland @ |12:15 pm|
Friday, November 12, 2010
This cannot go on forever. I certainly don't want to overwork, over consume and overeat. But that's the trend that I notice here and I foresee myself slowly following this trend and falling into this deadly trap. Have people actually go and calculate the tangibles and intangibles, the opportunity cost of staying on a job like this? I don't know. To me, it's not practical.
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Yvonne dancing in dreamland @ |12:44 pm|
Saturday, November 06, 2010
I hate it... I'm going to cut down my visits to dear dear's place. Firstly, it's for reputation sake. Secondly, it's for efficiency sake. From yesterday till now, I have never effectively done anything I WANT to do. I think I have 配合 enough. I haven't got time to do the things I WANT to do and it's crippling my OWN life's routine.
Edited on 28 Nov 10: It's not dear dear... Maybe.. I can't yet juggle work.. my own ideals and passion and my personal relationships all together elegantly.. However... I will keep trying and doing my best!!!!
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Yvonne dancing in dreamland @ |1:29 pm|
Monday, September 20, 2010
I have thinking alot these days, getting a little depressed these days and getting a little of a cry baby these days. I wish life can be simpler... I wish growing up won't be painful... I wish religion would bring more unity then harm. There are alot more things I wished for. I have many things that I wanted to do in life, things I would regret if it's not accomplished while I'm still breathing and alive. However, sometimes it's so hard to freely do what you want...
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Yvonne dancing in dreamland @ |11:27 am|
Thursday, September 16, 2010
No one understands
The sound of the phone dial tone brings sadness to my soul. I just felt no one understands. No one understands the struggles that I'm facing. No one understands the disappointment I felt when I don't achieve something. I just want a comforting arm and a listening ear. I want to whine and be heard. I just want to honestly say I'm tired. But no one understands. No one.. Not a single soul.
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Yvonne dancing in dreamland @ |11:43 pm|
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Empty sense of solitude
There are times when you want to confide in someone but it just seems to be a wrong timing. And these are the moments you have to be independent and strong. Don't know why, I just felt an empty sense of solitude.
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Yvonne dancing in dreamland @ |2:02 pm|
Friday, September 10, 2010
Living in the moment is an art and requires some skills to master it. I'm still an amateur but is an avid fan of it. Recently, I realise sometimes too much planning can cloud the fun of living in the moment and promote indulgence in procastination. One may think that before doing a certain item, one must do certain steps first. There must be a sequence or a number of steps. That's systematic and a good practise but may not be necessary all the time. Well, sometimes you will feel good if you have the just-do-it spirit. And after all that just-do-it exercises, you will feel the endorphin rush and a rush of adrenaline too. Wohoooooo!!!
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Yvonne dancing in dreamland @ |12:11 am|
